Hello, and welcome to my site. But why are you here? And who am I? That’s one question I’ll never tell. xoxo, Gossip Girl. Just kidding. I had to start off with some semblance of a joke and of course a pop culture reference, because, as you’ll see from reading my site, jokes and pop culture at any chance are 100% totally me, Miss Kelsey A Dykstra.
So why a blog?
The world is full of opinions that no one wants to hear already, so honestly who cares? Well, I do. This site is for me, and well anyone who wants to read it, but it’s not simply an outlet for my ego. It’s more of a form of therapy in more ways than one.
I have generalized and social anxiety. I always have a million thoughts rambling around in my head. Things I can’t let go of, no matter how hard I try, and things that frankly I obsess over again and again until the dead horse is beat to a pulp. Writing those thoughts down makes me feel like they’re finally out of me. I’m exhaling my obsessive thoughts so that I can feel some sense of relief before new obsessions form.
That’s therapy purpose one: my anxiety. Number two results from a day that changed my life completely, a day when I thought I would be having a kickass time in Pasadena with my husband at a long awaited Ed Sheeran concert. Little did I know, that I would never make that concert and instead wind up in a random ER up in LA county with a massive, life-changing blood clot.
That night was followed by months of elevated legs, narcotics for pain, mental and physical side effects, and wondering if I’d ever feel ‘normal’ again. I had to take a break from just about everything in my life. So as I work my way back physically to that of a healthy young woman in her 20’s, I’m taking some much needed mental therapy too in the form of this blog.
My blood clot may have gotten me down, my anxiety may never go away, but I won’t let either of those setbacks keep me down. With strong Tom Petty vibes standing at the gates of hell, I vow that I will not back down. I’ve been to hell and back so this is me fighting to be better than before, expressing every thought and feeling along the way, and giving myself permission to value my health, opinions, and ultimately myself through these blog posts. I know I’ll enjoy it and I sincerely hope you do too.
– Kelsey A
